~tada~this really rox!

2006-10-29T03:29:00.000-08:00

Go to www.lightamillioncandles.com today and light a candle!

Can't believe that so many children are actually treatened to go into the sex trade for child pornography. Please help this children kay. if you see my blog entry, quickly go to the website and go light a candle to help them.

it's shocking how people can be so sick lar. Child pornography?!?! Sick can!

haha. so go okay. Im not saying this twice.

2006-09-07T23:36:00.000-07:00

Sian lar. I friggin long never blog le. Too bad man. Just don't have the kind of motivation to blog. It must be the weather man. So hot~

EEyar! so shitty crap. I can't really write things here although i really want to release my emotions. I know std 3's read, so i dun usually describe training here. Was chatting with Candice and finally realised some stuff. How we really missed THEM...

Haiz.

Should have cherished the time before, why is it when sth is gone tt u start to miss it?

Dead

2006-08-31T02:58:00.000-07:00

You don't know how much I wish I was dead now.

I think the dance today was bad.

I mean, the rest was well but I was BAD.

I was hoping no one would actually recognise me but no, many people saw me and gave me comments on the dance. Obviously, the feedback given was positive. DUH. If some one asked me if her dance was good, even how bad it is, i would say it's good. Why? This is known as self-esteem. Back to the topic, it's obvious that it wasn't that great after all. I mean, I was frigging embarrassed lar.

eeyar.

I can imagine the amount of people laughing about me down the stage man.

the prob is, i'm standing between two chio bus. Everybody see clarissa and lynn then they look at me. Walau. they overshadow me lar. Not that i'm desperate for attention or something lar, but still very zi bei for my fugliness.

Dammit.

I wish I never ever went on stage, it was so depressing.

I can't dance lar.

to hera std 1s

2006-08-28T10:43:00.000-07:00

hey. just to really thank the std 1s again. thanks for your gifts and letters. it is really sweet, and i finally got to know what your really think of me. o.O

My skirt very short meh. I don't think so lor. Yaxin anyhow say. haha. but shortest in HERA ba.

arggh. i think i'm blogging too much on st.john and HERA, and yijie is desperately calling me to change topic of convo instead of talking of sj all the time. she says im an sj freak. im not lar. she anyhow say.

i'm currently in com lab, slacking away. candice, yijie, yingjie and joy all playing maple. sian sian sian. nothing to do.

oh. btw. i love my BALLS too
yixin, yingjie, ovidia, yijie, candice, clarrisa, vane and me.
luv ya guys.

shilei died on 10:43, 28th aug 2006. don't bother coming to my funeral, cos my BALLS will come.

squad spirit

2006-08-25T18:29:00.000-07:00

this is ghey. very ghey.

i think that there is really a great squad emerging from us? start to feel that maybe one day, JNCO would be too easy for us to accomplish. ever have this type of feeling? tell you what i'm feeling it rite now.

dammit. before training yest, i still had the mindset that we were not bonded enough, but after the training, maybe we could make it after all.

sian ar. im so ghey.

training was kinda tough, and i really dun even wanna tok bout it.

2006-08-19T03:28:00.000-07:00

HEY!

Shall blog bout std 1 compt and the training with std 3's, the second training with them, and the 2nd last training before JNCO.

The day started off with morning footdrill. Me and dawn were actually quite nervous and worried and stuff for the std 1's but now i realise our worrying is of no use, cos they were really pro.

After that had lessons, and then lunch. I was chiong-ing the std 1 letters during lunch, so very rush. Then after tt we bought stuff for std 1's and gave them their latters and we changed.

I remember in the toilet, everybody was very flustered cos Cindy forgot her beret. Then everybody was like very worried, cos she's beret i/c then we afraid that she would get double the punishment.

Okay. then we had footdrill. Damn sian lar. Footdrill for about 1 hr so and then legs and hands very tired. Then we had toc. Toc was fun lar. opening and closing the stretcher was fun and i did it with Chanel, who keep hinting me stuff cos i wasn't sure.:) thks Nel.

Then had Pt. the Pt wasn't that hiong. We had to carry stretcher from log house to obs course and from obs course back to log house. Everybody was to be in pumping position and cheering had to be loud. Since I had abraision on my knee, i had to do cruntches instead. And let me tell you, cruntches is not much better than pumpings.

After Pt, we had some special activity, which involved our i/c's running cos of our mistakes. Felt very guilty to cause them to run two rounds around the field just for us, and candice cried cos she really felt guilty.

After tt, had prize giving ceremony, very happy when realise tt hera got 3rd, your really did a good job. And from there, i can really see your potential lor.

3 cheers for Std 1's!

Let's pia for intra compt together okay. Looking forward to do this with your.

Just to tell your, your really rock lar. Thanks for coming down for all the compt trains and stuff when your can just pon. Thank you for even being enthu in Hera, thank you for being such nice juniors!

Actually, your can just call me by my name, dun need to lcpl here, lcpl there, haha. make me feel so big. Princess also sometimes very nice de, so call me by my name next time okay, only after i become instructor or something.

STD 1's 06 rock lar!(esp hera std 1's), But i love your all the same!

2006-08-12T03:30:00.000-07:00

Heh heh.

Behold the Hera royal family!

I was a little bored lar today so I started to make up characters to fit into my royal family!

1. I'm the princess!
2. Eli is the queen, cos queen elizabeth mar.
3. Chanel is my pince charming! Muackx
4. Dawn is the great! (a little no link to the family, but heck care lar)
5. Peirong is my servant, my maid!
6. Jason is my bodyguard!

haha.

i feel so gay lar!

Anyway, today had flag day, first flag day in my whole life! But i think i shld start donating to all the schools le, cos it is seriously very tiring to stand there and get rejected by almost everyone.
I thought SJ wasn't that efficient, cos there were many others schools there asking for the same cause and when u want someone to donate, they would just point to their shirt or bag where the sticker was already. it was very frustrating lar.

But i have to admit some people are really generous like the old uncles and old aunties, they are usually the people who part their money for SJ. While young people are usually not that nice lar.

It was just damn tiring, cos we stood most of the time.

we were in our brigade uniform so everybody was like staring at us. cos very guai lan.

I hope we are the house with the most money collected!

2006-08-09T18:08:00.000-07:00

Hello!

I realised that maybe i'm not goiing to blog that often next time so i'm trying to make up for it by blogging everyday.

There are seriously more projects now that concerns me and I still have not finished my bloody portfolio. So, i think i might be studying and stuff for a few weeks, after EOYs, I'll be back, I promise!

But after Eoy's, there's the JNCO course exam. Bloody hell. So maybe I'll be back after the JNCO course exam.

But after the JNCO course exam, JNCO is arriving and I may not be able to blog too. Okay, so i'll be back after JNCO.

But then there's Christmas, and then I would be staying at my aunt's house for a couple of days, so i would be back after Christmas.

But after Christmas, there'e the NEW YEAR celebration which I would be celebrating with my family, and so i think i may not be able to blog too. But don't worry, I will be back after NEW YEAR.

So i would only be able to post starting from next year, and I have actually showed you my schedule for the rest of the year.

Hectic? Definitely.

Dammit

2006-08-07T23:25:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry i'm posting two posts in one day, but i really have to do this.

After reading Dawn and Hoyee's blog, i just have to write this.

I'm sorry if I ever let your down, I'm sorry if there was a sudden change in my attitude and I just vented all my anger on your, sorry for not staying back for POP rehearsals and stuff, sorry for ever doubting our together-ness as one and sorry for everything that I could have done wrong that made your go through the punishment with me.

I start to realise, starting from yesterday, that i should seriously buck up in SJ. JNCO is getting nearer and nearer, and it means that your are leaving me faster and faster. As Dawn had said, what will we become after 36?

It's kinda sad lar, knowing that I start to feel the together-ness and start to feel the bonding that i always doubted, but isn't it all too late?

Realise how we were the most IMPOSSIBLE squad that everyone thought that we were just a pile of shit.

Realise how we always got scolded because of our over-enthu-ness and us having the heck-care attitue?

Now that your are soon going to leave, I start to wonder this is our attitude, and will it change after your leave us.

We would not be the biggest squad anymore and it just hurts deep down in my heart.

I start to see how great this squad is and how right i was to choose Sj as a CCA.

I'm really worried that one day I might not see your by my side anymore and how the squad would change into without your.

I have to admit, the squad has already evolved into my life, and by taking away my squadmates, you are taking away part of my life.

I'm sorry. I'm getting very emotional now.

We will always be the best squad. Your spirit will stay with us.

My hair!

2006-08-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

SEH SEH SEH!

i like my hair leh. why dawn say not nice?

It's BLUE okay! it's supposed to be seh larh. Dawn jealous only.

Heh heh.

walau. why i come home so early and there's frigging nobody online? I'm kinda feeling really sian now.

Anyway. Today got NATIONAL Day celebrations!

And of cos if you haven't heard of it yet, the Eds ppl danced to the song we did for POP! though i think our dance is nicer!

haha. But it's seh lar.

And then we thought it was 4A doing the dance cos got miscommunication between us and sgt rebekah, so all of us chiong to the hall when the Sec 3s and Sec 4s were still watching the concert. Then got loads of ppl look at us with a guai lan look on their face.

haha. So cool! We're so enthu!

FORWARD WITHOUT FEAR!

2006-08-07T05:20:00.000-07:00

I think we will rock the house down man!

I just have a feeling we're gonna do it! It suddenly all clicks in my mind and causes me to sort of start to wake up and realise that JNCO is not that far away.

When JNCO training course was over, I believe everybody was very relieved, but don't you realise that this brings us one step nearer to JNCO? And i'm not sure I will be able to go through it.

But i believe now that it's kinda possible. As I said, it just clicked. I promised with Yijie that we will PIA through JNCO. And we seriously mean PIA. I mean, Candice was so frigging shocked at Yijie's attitude, I was shocked too lar. We agree to do flag raising on the first day of JNCO.

Candice said i matured after this two days. But i don't think so.

It's just something in my haed that tells me i should buck up in SJ already. And i believe my intuition. I hope it's the right choice though.

I seem to see it, we pia'ing through JNCO and becoming the best squad ever when we emerge from it, sweaty and disgusting. But it seems to be something that will and I seriously believe shall come through.

We will be the strongest and seh-est squad ever kay! Jiayou everyone. Rmb how 'on' we were when we still sec 1s. try to revive those memories ba.

eh. Cut all tt fucking crap larh. Though i am truly serious. i just see it.

Anyway. Today, I went for HERA's first compt train. And i have to admit larh, the std 1s these year are seh. i rmb we didn't learn belop last year larh. And they learn so fast, cos they only like got damn few trainings. Not like us last year, when we had staff grace, staff yuhan, staff jiahui and staff yiwei. Seh-ness. And staff grace's common words.

"If you do properly, I give you jellibean. If you do badly, I throw jellibean at you ar!" In her deep and unique voice. Miss you guys lar. Jia you for O levels kay.

Walau. This blog entry is frigging long larh.

Anyway, to end off,

Liwen, Wen zhong, Yeuk Ho, May, Ya Sin and Jia Min: Jiayou kay. Don't so shy le lar. I can see potential in you all kay.

Jiamin: work hard on your homat kay. it's kinda guai lan now, but you will geddit soon kay. My homat also guai guai de. Jiayou kay. Try to catch up alright? You're learning fast!

I'm feeling kinda gay leh. Doing footdrill on the netball court in one straight line with all the std 2s wasn't such a good idea after all. But i believed everybody enjoyed it right.

Look down and highlight

and of cos Candice and her drill cane.

Jia you worr!

new blog skin

2006-08-04T01:50:00.000-07:00

NICE NOT!

i think its very nice leh.

ooh. pink.

haha. i've not been blogging for a long time cos i'm not really in the mood. Candice asks why i don't blog about POP, but i think i shan't cos i would just cry all over again. Memorable things should not be wriiten but should stay in your heart forever. and since it stays in your heart forever, what is the point of me blogging bout it?

Gay lar.

I hope std 1's this yr win! i mean HERA std 1s. hehehe. i think they have a lot of potential. wondering how we must have looked like when we were training for std 1 comp last yr? i just rmb candice everyday in class bang her bang there (though she does that now too).

Heh. i'm reali worried bout JNCO. cos i'm bloody sure it's gonna be bloody tough. anyway, tml is JNCO training course which brings us one step closer to JNCO. wondering how i'm gonna survive through JNCO..

Sorry.

2006-07-23T07:01:00.000-07:00

Hey. This is to the squad yeah. Im seriously sorry. i don't know what's happening but i hope you will be able to accept the fact that I may not be with you soon. aghh. :( but whatever happens, hope it's okay. I hope that nth will change our friendship kay.

This is to you Dawn.

2006-07-01T17:59:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure what is happening to me only that I know I don't feel that happy.

I know it's a difficult decision for you and that I should respect it. Shouldn't I have guessed it? Maybe I'm being too emotional or sensitive, the rest of the squad seems to accept reality, but why can't I?

On my birthday, if a magician gave me a wish, I would wish that you would stay. If you go, I rather Eve leave with you(no offence) cos I just can't bear to look at Eve and remember you. I know you feel bad, and that's why you kept the truth from me, and told the squad not to tell me cos you were afraid I would get too emotional.

Boo. I'm crying.

Hera will never be complete without you in a way. I feel bad and I think you feel bad too. I just hope it is possible for you to come back for any major celebrations in the squad.

I don't want this blog entry to change your decision. It's just a tribute for you. Just for you.

I hope you will remember the laughter we had, the tears we shed, the screams we shouted. Thank you for making my life so memorable. You can count on me. If you have any problems, the squad will be there for you, and even if there aren't, I will be there.

Remember this:

and this

Remember us :)

Hey~
Hera boys and Hera girls hey
Hey ah hey~
Come and join in all the fun hey
Hey ah hey~
We are always number 1 hey
Hera spirit all the way~
Hey~

We are the best and we just can't deny it
Shake it, shake it, shake it to the top
I say, shake it, shake it, shake it to the top
I say oo lala I say hera lala
I say oo lala i say hera lala
*clap 11 time*
Hera!

Lousy Computer

2006-06-21T03:52:00.000-07:00

The computer is lousy. Dammit. :(

It's ghey lar. I can't get into www.blogskins.com. Go see whether you can get into the website and tell me kay.

Suck lar. Sian lor. Wa lau.

HEH! I wanna be a princess! I shall be PRINCESS SHILEI from today onwards like how Dawn is the great. But my princess is in caps. So yar.

Hah. I've got nothing to do i'm sian. MAPLE doesn't work on my com. My com is like lousy lar. Don't know what happen to it, then cannot play already. Entertain me kay.

CHIO BU!

2006-06-19T17:23:00.000-07:00

WA LAU!

You stupid bad people. I heard that the squad was discussing how JOLIN TSAI is very disgusting. NO LO! She's very nice!

I'm currently listening to Wonder In Madrid by Jolin and it's great!

If you want or anything, you can come look for me. I can send it to you or something. Dancing Diva is great!

Oh my god! She damn chio can!

The squad is just jealous lar~

Anyway, sorry to your for not going to the squad outing. I know it was a promise and I did not fulfil it. But something cropped up that stopped me from going. Please don't scold me kay. Don't ask me what happened, I don't want to talk about it. I'm afraid.

On a lighter note, my birthday is reaching! Hah. What are you buying for me? Better faster go and think okay!

Cartoon Network is Fun!

2006-06-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

WAJI! Okay, so what if I play games at cartoonnetwork .com? Don't say I'm childish kay, cos I might just use my head and hit against yours and let me tell u, it would really hurt!

So, as I was saying. Cartoonnetwork.com is fun lar. Got games, this and that, and it's all so thrilling! AHHHH~

Go check it out kay. The games are damn cool can. Wa kanasai! Very exciting can. I play until I jump on the wheel chair and then start dancing some "Bu Pa Bu Pa" song. I got a picture, you see le confirm go and play games at cartoonnetwork.com. Aiya, don't play Maple le, or Gunbound, or Dota, go play games at cartoonnetwork.com!

So you see:

Cute larh. I like tt orange furry thing on the top. Very cute!!

I'm going to school tomorrow, for project. And anyway, the chinese mv ppl didn't go to sch today, the gathering was cancelled, so I say sorry for wat?!

WALAU! Waste my time only. I still felt so guilty. Jibong lar.

More and more vulgarities seem to be coming out from my mouth. Aiya. I believe everyone would speak with vulgarities right? Can you imagine if anyone spoke without a single hint of rudeness? That would be a miracle!

Like it may go:

No rudeness person: Hello, how have you been?
Very rude person: JiBong larh. 4D lose again.
No rudeness person: Oh, you shouldn't talk this way, it's very insulting and rude to others.
Very rude person: Aiya, dun act guai lar. You confirm also got say one.
No rudeness person: ... ...

Wah. Talk to that person confirm sibeh irritating de. Candice was like that before...

Sorry!

2006-06-14T03:23:00.000-07:00

Okay! I'm so sorry lo! I couldn't make it to buy food with the squad today but I'm confirm going for the squad outing kay?

Paiseh lo! Sorry to Chanel and to Candice! Really really sorry. I know you all are quite disappointed. SORRY!

Again, sorry to the chinese MV ppl. Sorry for not going to school at 6am this morning cos my mother is quite against the idea. Sorry to Chaoyuan, Yijie, Yixin, Qianye, Weijie, and other Huga ppl who were tagging along. I'm really sorry.

Haiz. I must be a loser. I've let so many ppl down. Feel free to scold me if you really want and is really pissed with me. I promise not to talk back and just keep quiet if what I do will make you forgive me. I'm really sorry.

On a lighter note, how many sorrys' did I just say? Help me count leh. I think it's nine sorry's right? Help me count then tag and tell me how many okay!

So, how did filming go? Was it okay? Did you meet any ghosts? WAJI! Confirm super fun de then I never go. WALAU! KANASAI!

New blogskin!

2006-06-12T18:22:00.000-07:00

Okay. Firstly, I've got a new blogskin! Nice not? Must give me your comments kay. Go tag!

Any way, if you still can't figure out how to enter, click the rewind below the "enter"sign kay.

HAH! I'm so happy!

By the way, if you wanna join the fruit club, come on and tell me or tzu hsiang. If you want to get detailed information on who's in the club , go check out the squad blog which is in my links. Strictly for standard twos only! I'm so pissed with std 4's im not gonna let them join! HAH! Come and beg me lor! Pui ar!

Okay. I don't like tzu hsiang le. You bad banana! Tzu hsiang is a terrible stalker. Want to stalk me then say le, so tou tou muo muo one. Aiya, you tell me you going to stalk me, I will give you all my pictures and info about me. I know you want it! Don't bluff me.

Whatever. When did this stalking stuff happen? Tzu hsiang must have started it!

That naughty banana!

Full house

2006-06-05T17:54:00.000-07:00

HAH. I've recently fell in love with Full House. It's such a great show it shouldn't be missed.

And of cos, RAIN is so cute! HAH! For those who don't know how he looks like, I've got a pic.
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Our prince arrives!

Did I forget to mention he's sexy too? HAH! so cute.

But of cos EDISON is not bad too. HAH! Show you a picture of a super shuai person kay.

SHUai rite. HAH! His facial features very sharp worr.

Anyway, as I was saying. Full house is a great show and you should all go watch it, don't tell me you all don't have scv, cos you can watch it on youtube kay.

NVM! I shall put the URL of the trailer and you go watch okay. I tell you, you will be immediately addicted after this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpHIg9WrUzY

Go watch hor, if not I kick your ass ar!

I'm sorry but I still couldn't find time to upload my Batam pics, maybe tomorrow!

Today is our date with the devil. Its the 6th of june in year 06. Which makes it 666. And this three numbers are the symbols of the devil. Don't you realise all the major destructions tend to fall on a date when there is a 6? I shall list it out for you.

- The Great Fire of London, 1666
- American war of Independence, 1776
- San Francisco earthquake and fire, 1906

AND NOT TO MENTION
- The Tsunami, Dec 26, 2004!

Coincidence? Too much of it I think.

The Omen opens today in cinemas. It is a supernatural thriller about the birth of the Antichrist, Saturn's reincarnation. The boy in the movie, has a birthmark that reads out 666 on his head. Terrifying? Definitely.

I was looking at the promo pic and then I totally freaked out. Tell you what, I have no guts to upload the pic. So if you are really interested in it: Go to Yahoo! Search and type in 'The omen', then click on the images search, then click on the pic with a boy playing a piano, and staring back at you. Enlarge the image, stare at it and you will totally freak out.

Whatever. I'm too shocked for words. Can you believe it, I'm actually scared of a picture.

Anyway, good luck on checking out the pic.

Hamsters

2006-06-05T04:18:00.000-07:00

HAH. I had a funny incident today. HAH. Pardon me for my happiness. It's kinda rare.

Okay. So as I was saying, my small young cousin came to my house today, and she was talking to me about her hamster. And of cos, if you know me, I hate hamsters. Don't you feel disgusted when your hand vibrates with their heartbeat when you hold it in your hand. I would then just feel like crushing the hamster.

And then she told me that she was bitten by it many times, and then she suddenly screamed out, " I hate hamsters!" And I really meant SCREAM! hah. Very funny can.

Anyway, I just realised the dates for my posts all wrong le. I just can't find the thing to change the date. Blogger lag lar.

BATAM trip!

2006-06-03T23:11:00.000-07:00

The photos from the Batam trip is up!
I shall just show you some special ones.

Take a look. Captured this pic at a kelong of some sort. SEH~

Update another day kay. Very tired sia

The X-traordinary

2006-06-03T22:46:00.000-07:00

Before we start, take a look at X-men 3: The last stand. This is its promo pic.

Actually, I think it's slighty overrated cos I don't think it's that great a movie. How can it be when so many people die in one movie. Aren't they suppose to be mutants? Ah. I shan't tell you much about the movie. For those who haven't watched it yet, I'll only spoil the fun for you.

Well, for those who heven't read. Go on to Chao Yuan's blog at www.not-even-a-blog.blogspot.com. HYSTERICAL!

Whatever. Just go check it out. Chao yuan owes it to me. I'm promoting his blog k.

Don't you all think Jean Gray just looks bad? I expected a ravishing beauty but what I saw was just a old hag. AH. Maybe it's just the make-up of some sort to make her look evil, but she definitely doesn't look good with it.

And since your at it, you might want to look at our ALC pics at tzu hsiang's blog at www.speciallyu.blogspot.com. HAH.

ANGEL is hot!

ALC blues.

2006-06-01T04:34:00.000-07:00

I am officially back from ALC!

Woah. With a big abraision wound on my left knee, I am back! I kinda started peeling off the outer layer of the wound so that it slowly reveals a red raw skin beneath. Ah. People go check it out when school reopens.

Yes. If you haven't heard it yet, HERA won the champs for nursing cadet team, so I got a trophy. But the trophy is all kinda fake cos it is very very light and I believe it is made up of plastic. But I definitely won't let it ruin my ALC moods.

I heard ALC this year was not as fabulous as last years' but I cannot make a comparison here cos i didn't attend ALC last year for some family matters. I thought it was just fine, with a tint of boring-ness in it. HAH.

But I enjoyed most of the activities they organized for us though. It was disappointing that we got second last for URBAN HIKE but its okay. IT was sad too when we lost our joker, but HERA is still in high spirits, yeah.

I'm specially drinking from a milk bottle(yup, the one hera seniors bought for us). Just to say thanks for mentoring us and taking your time off to come down for morning footdrills which must have took up much of your time. YOU ROCK!

I especially like DACTYL's cheer. Maybe, siling can teach me one day how to do the RA-ing. HAH.

8th of june i've got SANA>

H-E-R-A
Hera, hera is the best
H-E-R-A
Hera hera wins the rest.

Hope you enjoyed Annual Leisure Camp too!

You don't understand me.

2006-03-10T02:00:00.000-08:00

I don't know what i should say. I am angry, shocked and sad. I don't know why you pretend that you understand me when actually you don't. I don't know if I am a little too sensitive or you are going too far. It doesn't mean that you can insult me when I am in the same class as you and am your friend. I am totally traumitized by what you said. I wonder if you truly care about me.
You scold me for no pratical reason. You insult me. You accuse me of things i have not and will not do. You are unhappy at everything I do. You just can't stand my face. Are all these true.
I do not wish to raise names, i don't want to let you down. I may be small in size, I may have an attitude problem, but I believe you should not insult me the way you do. You think I feel good about this? Do you think I must waste one blog entry on a worthless person like you? No, i shouldn't. But this blog is not dedicated to you.
What did I do to deserve such treatment by you. You have no right to pollute my reputation, and you have no right to hurt my friends. You may not like me, but do you think i like you? Look at yourself, how many real friends do you have? I may not have many friends, but at least I have true friends and the whole STD 2 st.john squad behind me. And what do you have in compare to me?
I may not be rich, i may not be pretty, but the spirit of my friends and my squad keeps me pretty and rich mentally. Do you have such loyal and real friends? If you don't, then shut up. I don't need your critisism, i don't need you to look at me in that way every morning. I really don't need it. Thank you very much. My friends support me throughout thick and thin but you just try to aviod any class matters that come along. I don't deserve the shit you are giving me.
Please don't pretend to show me care and concern when someone is looking. I don't think you can go far with all that fake stuff you are doing. Don't show me concern when i am sad, don't share my joy with me. I rather you not come along. You proud, lazy,careless,undisciplined,over-confident,ungrateful,disgusting pig. Get out from my sight. I don't want to see you.
You just don't understand me.

let's talk about love

2005-10-12T23:24:00.000-07:00

Recently, I let go of my love life. It's not a bad thing, I'm fine and I hope most of you who are lovesick and know that there's no hope, please forget him/her. It's not depressind, i think it is a sudden calm after a heavy rainfall. Yes, I cried but it wasn't for long, I forgot him. Well, was surfing the net when i chanced upon this:

Ultra nice, eh? the graffiti is like so nice! So colourful!!
actually, i think that love is an important problem to be handled with,it can be quite trouble some too.
with my previous crush, i would be very upset but i after i forgot, i feel terrific lar.
check out this pic:

so kawaii ba! love babies like hell!

anger for myself, im pissed

2005-09-26T04:19:00.000-07:00

From the title, you can tell that I'm very fucking pissed right? Well, if you are little blind one hor, then i shall tell you: I AM VERY PISSED!! Capital letter already hor, should be can see le ok?( you can see i hate blind people like how i hate damn chen wei lian) But this entry won't be 'bout that damn idiot. I won't waste an entry on him.
It's 'bout that damn language arts project and play larhx. The group I'm working with is not exactly cooperative huh? Not group but a person is especially irritating and she makes me feel like puking all over her. She shit lehx, wat the fuck, think she so good, keep scolding me, like her acting very good liddat. I got damn lot lines to remember lar, den still call me to have more expression, my face qian bian cannot meh? Want to fight ar..go toilet lar, you choose male or female lor, anyway, you are choosing the place you are going to die at! One day she better worship me, I not easy bully one hor, later I call my brother go your house and settle, my brother and all his gina will kill you! You watch out hor!
I'm totally stressed out lor. EOY's and the language arts play. Everyday also have to stay back, I know everybody is staying back too, but my mother damn shit lar! These was what she said when I went home late after doing language arts project:

"Ai yo, I don't know what you do in school ar, everyday so late come home, you think I don't know ar, you go out with your friends right, huh? Go out and shop rite, or in school 胡搞!"

Wow! I've got the nicest mother in the whole wide world! She actually thinks that i'm 胡搞ing in school! Hurray! I'm so happy! Dammit. FUCK.
What's her problem I don't know, I just know she doesn't trust her daughter. Maybe i was adopted! Don't you think being adopted is so goddamn cool! Wah..den you know when you grow up and den you go and find your real parents, den you are like sibeh chio den you meet this damn shuai guy! wah! Very cool right? No? Go die lar, nobody dares to object what I say, understand? Yes, princess shilei, you are the best! thank you thank you! damn. living in my fantasys again. Woah~ to any body hu eva reads my blog, jiayou for eoy's! i love you for reading my nonsensical blog!

EOY thoughts

2005-09-21T05:23:00.000-07:00

i just don't understand why people are not studying for the EOY's. I know it's none of my business but still knowing the keh pou kia I am, i really don't understand. I mean, i'm not particularly studying like hell too, but i just don't understand why some people are so not afraid of the EOY's? Not scary meh?
Terribly hate those people that tell you they never study den in the end get so much higher then you. Feel quite betrayed rite? But den, again, i'm that kinda person:telling people i never study, den go home and mug like hell
"wah...i cannot lose to XXX she last time get so high, i must beat her!!!"that was what i told my mum and i think i can't do it. Must have confidence! jia you jia you!
Damn. Today's maths paper was shit. I didnt know how to do the last question and it was like 8 marks. FUCK! going to get a caning soon ba...

Impossible is nothing

2005-09-05T04:29:00.000-07:00

Wah, siao. I never update my blog for damn long liao lehx, dun noe whether got any ppl come and read? hehez....
firstly, i was talking to a friend of mine the other day and i was quite offended when she told mi tt my blog was quite boring. as in, pls lar, you nothing nice to sae den dun sae lar, she think her blog very nice meh, ugly like siao, the template somemore like shit, so F*** off and stop being such a fucking bitch!
secondly, went to serangoon stadium yesterday for the brigade uniform inspection, it was quite lame ba...quite boring too but overall okay...
den, i went to changi airport to eat! wah, i felt so rich lehx, like some princess liddat, den while i was queueing to buy something, i stepped on someone's leg and i was like damn pai seh lor, shit. damn.arghhh.sian diao. i dunno wat to write...
so, shld be about it, update next time when i have the time kies!!!
~sian and crappy gal

Standard one comp.

2005-08-20T02:50:00.000-07:00

okies. before u start reading this, you shld be aware of how much im crying now. the tears are just pouring down themselves without me even having to do anything, so i guess u know the results.
firstly, i reached school at 800sharp and the rest of my hotel mates were already ther, trust them to be so early and they thought i was not coming and they were quite afraid that they had to deduct 2o points. Makes me think whether they realli care about me or they are just worried about their points., but was quite confident. had to pin up my hair and i thiought i looked terrible. And Chanel was saying i looked sweet and i totally went bersark as in how can i look sweet when my fringe is being pinned to the side of my head and im looking idiotic?
after tt we fall in and was very happy bcos cpl grace made us honey water. i thought it was very nice but she said it was not nice bcos she was rushing through it in the morning but howeva terrible it tastes i will still finish it up. its the thought tt counts rite? But i thought it was realli sweet for her to do tt.
nxt up, we were put into different classrooms in this formation:

1h:Hotel, Juliett, Bravo
1G:Alpha, Sierra, delta

we went to do footdrill first ba. it went pretty well but i think cpl jianhui marched too fast tt we had to run to catch up with him.haha. but there was a prob though, when we were supposed to do pandang kekenan, some of us did pandang kekiri, but overall mdm yanqi said we were very good.

after tt, we went to do first aid case one which TEAM 1 (me, peirong, elizabeth, jason) did.i did the treatment for sprains wrongly i didnt even noe wat the hell tt injury was but also overall well done.
den there was first aid case 2, where the problems realli arise. Team 2(dawn, chanel, peirong, jason) did almost all the treatment wrongly but i dun blame them, the sir is too niao lor. den i think we flunked tt case and the stupid casualty pingyen!!! so noisy, like a pig going to be slaughtered liddat. i heard he was very nice to delta. is he bias or wat!?!?

den the prize giving ceremony. the sequence follows:

1st:delta
2nd:juliett
3rd:alpha
4th:hotel
5th:sierra
6th:bravo

we lost to alpha by 0.5 marks. do u noe how samll a margin is that. it kinda gets on my nerves. and den i started bursting into tears bcos i felt i have let the seniors and hotel down. soone, dawn and chanel were crying. even eli and jason were crying. and then we had a debrief by cpl grace when she suddenly started bursting into tears. it made mi fell so bad.

but now i feel much better. as in there are no failures there are onli learning experiences. let hotel's spirit carry on filling our hearts.

~tired and heartbroken gal

im so unrealistic

2005-08-12T19:59:00.000-07:00

hey, so long never come and update liao, does anyone miss me?( i hear a very loud YES!!!)
so realli busy this few daez, so realli didnt have anytime to update, cos i was studying, i mean realli studying, as in sitting down and studying, i noe most of u out there dont believe mi at all but its okay cos i realli dun look like the type that will study but HECK CARE!!!
hahaz...the other day, i mean yesterdae...i was on the bus with fellow classmate and squad mate, yijie, and we were toking about some sjab stuff, i sort of slowly wanted to put down all the burdens i have and go for comp train no matter wat, but sometimes it just doesnt go smoothly for me. its either my mum wants mi baq for lunch or wants me home to study and it kinda gets on my nerves. and now i feel kinda left out in hotel, but it doesnt matter if i didnt go for annual leisure camp or anything, i just feel inda wierd when my other hotel mates are toking to the std 2s frm hotel and i got nothing to sae cos i dun noe them well.
well, maybe i realli shld have went for the alc, but now i realli wished i went, if not i wouldnt be left aside feeling so bad and akward...but hu cares...as in i mean...wat i realii want now is to train well for the intra comp thats happening realli soon and win this damn competition. so i will get a TREAT!!!hahaz...nth much le...jia you everyone for intra comp kies?

~sad and left out gal

comp train...

2005-08-04T21:50:00.000-07:00

hah, today there was comp train...very duh happy cos i luv comp train this much^stretches hands out^ oh yes...i luv comp train...but todae was utterly embarrassing...i didnt learn how to assess the case bcos i was at katong cc on monday doing the stupid CIP...so i was taught today...den all my hotel mates were trying to teach mi how to assess the case...very nervous cos all of 'em were lookin' at mi, but i think they were very sweet...den cpl yiwei tested mi, and i think i did fairly well...not to praise myself or anything but i think i did well...
den we tried doing first aid case...i was no. 3 on the first try den became a onlooker at the second try and den became no. 4 on 3rd try...hahaz...think i totally flunked it...how...sad...but quite sick ar..i think...as in body check up was sick...as in S-I-C-K...hahaz
den we had footdrill...learnt 2 new drills...damn fun...but i could not do the t-l-v-bang thing if you noe wat im toking bout...den did the one tt needed to turn to the side...FUN!!!
tomorrow hse seniors r going to announce the nos. think im going to b a 4...cos im good in nth...

~carefree and happy gal

training was damn fun!!!

2005-07-31T03:02:00.000-07:00

i didnt update 4 a long time cos there is this damn prob with my com...its going on and off on its own and im starting to think whether its possessed or not...
had training on fridae with standard threes...its supposed to b their 1st routine training with us...hmm...wondering if they are starting to hate us...well...fridae's training was fun lar...though std three's are definitely more strict and scarier than the std 4's...we had uniform inspection 1st...wah...scared mi out of my life when cpl jianhui stood in front of mi...quite scared of him lehx...new chairman...scary...
after tt...we had 1st aid...jian hui then taught us the one min approach...was quite easy i think...then we went through the cpr for saturdays efa...after tt...we had footdrill practice...and then sir kk, sgt tze sam, mdm yu chen and sir huawei was there...so freaking freaked out...and was damn nervous cos they were all looking at us...after tt we had pt...and then i realised tt our squad now has the tendency of waiting for the whole squad...muz b wat they taught us =P... then we did the whell barrow thingy and kaiwen was injured...i think he had stitch and then summore during the wheelbarrow game....we needed to use alot of strenght...i believe kaiwen had the determination to finish the race b4 collapsing...this shows dhssjab std 1 squad '05 has the spirit...three cheers and three cheers for kaiwen...hope tt your leg doesnt hurt tt much now...jia you kies???
saturdae...went for efa...studied like hell for theory and cpr onli to noe tt theory was only true and false...i was like...wat the hell...i have a feeling of being lied to...then cpr sucked...nerve wrecking...i got sir pia leong...so u noe how bad it is...i keep doing wrong things lehx...i felt so bad...bcos i can remeber everything one lor...onli go in already den 4 got liao...haiz...its all my fault...
well...mum just said she banned me frm watching tv...i was like "but i cant live without the damn tv"
and i guess she was realli pissed with me...arghhh...i dun believe it...im grounded!!!

~grounded gal signing off

things arent alwaez going well 4 mi i see

2005-07-21T19:39:00.000-07:00

well, its thursdae already...i'm almost three-quater my way through TLTM...realli sad...cos half of the the 11 projects and hw are still sitting on my table rotting away...one glance of them and i start to worry...how? No choice lar...i'm past my previous "kiasu" behaviour liao...and now i dun even care bout them...rest all they want...juz dun come and bother mi...i think im getting slacker and slacker...but i juz dun feel like doing any work...i juz feel like lying on my bed...and sleeping away...like sleeping beauty...hahaz...full of crap...
I juz happened to take out my sjab form todae...and realised tt i could not sleep over on saturdae...cos its my cousin's wedding...and thinking tt i was still looking forward to tokin to the sec 4 seniors the whole nite...i wrote all of them postcards...but now im tearing the postcards...(believe mi...im crapping)but i guess i'll still b there...at most i might not be able to stay over...realli hope my cousin can cancel the wedding...im i being mean?
realli hungry now...cos my stomach is growling like mad...one more growl and the earth might...
shit.

it growled again...

r u still there...has the earth fallen...ouch...

well...will miss my pretti blog...bye...lurbb u.

sooo tired

2005-07-15T16:52:00.000-07:00

yo...feel like updating so came baq online to c my dearest dearest blog...okay...basically...i was rushing home yesterday bcos my godma juz like won 4d...is tt wat they call it?....nvm...she gave us a treat...and my whole family was like rushing to SWENSONs to eat....cos of the long period without good food...hahaz...felt quite full though....but swensons service is not marvellous...i like waited for 45 mins juz 4 my food...but mayb its bcos of the amount of ppl there...the restaurant was so full...its the nxt day already and i feel so full tt i dun even feel like eating lunch...^^burp^^
yesterday...sir wah wei told us some things bout the sec 1 comp...and omg...im so excited and scared though...xinying also told us tt we had to stay overnite 4 pop...dun think i can make it though...with so much hw rotting on my table...walau...i have to scold the teachers lor...11 hw+project and we are supposed to finish it after tltm...omg...kinda scared...listening to jay's jie kou...so sweet...if only somebody would sing tt to mi...

~tired and worried gal signing off

wat the f***

2005-07-14T17:40:00.000-07:00

okay...firstly...im going to be so damn rude and vulgar so pls dun mind mi...wat the f***ing shit...the stupid chi teacher of mine is sooooo irritating.....so bias...shit her lar...everything also listen to sy...let mi make this clear...im not jealous or anything....i juz think she doesnt have the rite to be a teacher if she's bias...dun even want to be seen together with her....sy's ideas veh good meh...i dun think so AT ALL...okay...so wat if he's good at chinese...at least that damn f***ing teacher of mine shld not be BIAS!!!!She shld give us chances to answer the questions and not everything for sy!!!!i am so damn pissed off...tt i feel like punching the wall of my hse...ouch...
secondly...dun blame mi for being sooo angry... cos im really going to punch the idiot cme teacher of mine away...she come into the class room thinking tt she is the queen of the wurld...HELLO? pls lar...she think so highly of herself marhx...and she is not like so PRETTY or anything...she has flabby arms,ugly figure,terrible face...fine...i cant find anymore adjectives to describe her...but hu cares...shit her lar...she keep on toking bout the forefathers...as if they are her children liddat...she is so not welcome in our class...yuck...
thirdly and lastly...im sooo sad...the sadness juz creeps up to you after blurtinf out so much things in my chest...somehow...i feel so calm...or mayb not...cos its such a nice day...the birds are chirping merrily...the children are playing happily...WATSOEVA...wat was i tokin bout...nvm...
today...my sick day...
signing off~the vulgar gurl

~tada~*this really rox!*